SCRAMBLE, SCRAMBLE

My brain doesn’t shut up. It’s a buzzing loop of overthinking, daydreaming, doubting, and replaying conversations that never even happened. That’s why this blog exists—to clear the noise. To get the static out of my head and into a place where it might finally make some kind of sense. Maybe.

I don’t know if this will help anyone. I hope it helps me. If it reaches someone else who lives in a similar mental mess—even better. Maybe we can all untangle a few wires together.

I’ve become dependent on that noise in my head. Scared to venture out, I invent scenarios that probably won’t happen and let them control me. I overthink until I freeze—and let Brain Static obstruct my path.

I’m sick and tired of it. I can’t keep living a stagnant life. I’ve always been stuck at home. I want to take solo adventures to the park or the beach, but I imagine every single step I’d have to take. I overwhelm myself. I convince myself I’m better off staying in. So I stop. I sit. I doom-scroll on my couch like it’s a part-time job.

There has to be a reason I’m like this. I can’t just be lazy… right? Surely I’m not so lazy that I’ve let life zoom by without doing anything. I have a full-time job—I show up, I rarely call out. That’s got to count for something. That has to mean I’m not useless.

Honestly, I just want to figure it out. I want to do more for myself. I don’t want to rot on the couch without experiencing the world. It won’t be easy, and it’ll be a slow process. But maybe this blog can help me stay creative, stay curious, and give me a reason to crawl out of this dark cave.

And if it helps, entertains, or inspires someone else along the way—then maybe it’s worth it.