Have you ever felt pressured to do something for someone, and it made you feel stressed? But also felt like you had to do it because if something went wrong you’d feel responsible? What’s the right word for this? GUILT!
Unfortunately, I’ve put myself in the position of possibly feeling guilt if I don’t fulfill the task in time. It’s making my skin crawl with existencial dread. That might seem too extreme, perhaps, but this is BRAIN STATIC and it is Static-ing!
Static all over the body not just the brain. Situations like these—serious forms, and deadlines— are not for me. I truely dread them and just want to crawl into my little cozy hole and avoid the entire world.
The worst part? The person I’m doing this for is not even the reciprical kind. He loves to take, judge and never ever give back. Complains to the max and communicates like a mad man in the dark ages. Nothing he says is ever understood but you know its oozing with neagativity.
So, am I going to do this task? Yes, I am.
Will I dread it all the way through? Absolutlely!
Will I procrastinate a little? You damn right I am.
And last but not least, will I put myself in this position again? Tragically, yes
Some of you might ask: why in the hell would you do something for someone that doesn’t deserve to be helped? And I’d say—it’s a long story. Unfortunately, I can’t say no, especially when it’s about a serious matter and it involves a family member. Unless it is absolutely ridiculous and impossible for me to do, I have this sense of duty to the family—even if it has nothing to do with me. I can usually draw a thin line but sometimes I can’t.
If any one is interested or resonates with this somehow, some way. What is your opinion? Why do you go through it? And if you don’t, how can you be so free? Is there feelings of regret or have you found total independence.
***please no hate, we just dont care for it. It’s boring and exhausting.
Be kind (and rewind)
Be tolerant
Be respectful
BrainStatic 
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